I can't believe Skyler has been gone for almost a whole week. I really miss her, but things have been pretty quiet around here. Chase hasn't been feeling very well for the last few days. He was really grouchy all day today. Today Jonathan and I did absolutely nothing. I got up around 7:00 a.m. with Little Man because it was Jonathan's day to sleep. I fixed Little Man his breakfast and bottle. We then played for a couple of hours and I laid him back down and I crawled back into bed with Jonathan around 9:30. We laid in bed for another hour or so talking and what not and then finally crawled out of bed and came downstairs to get something to eat.
After we ate we watched a movie we had received from Net*flix. It was The Bour*ne Supre*macy. It was pretty good. Although I hadn't actually seen the first one. Last night we watched My*stic River and it totally sucked. At least we thought so anyway. It was sooooo slooooow..... Not to mention it had a really fu--ed up ending. The last movie we have is Oce*ans Twe*lve. I didn't like the first one, so I don't even think I'll watch this one. Then we'll send these movies back and get some more. We hardly ever have time to sit down and watch a movie together when Skyler is here. So it was a real treat to sit down and watch several over the last couple of days. That's why we like Net*flix so much. They send you the movies and if it takes us a day to watch them or a week, then we just send them back. Very cool.
The day just drug by. We are both so used to being busy that we didn't really know what to do with ourselves. Around 5:00 we finally decided we had to get out of the house so we headed to Moe*'s for dinner and then to my all-time favorite ice cream place in the world Cold Sto*ne Cream*ery. Yum! If you've never had ice cream from there and you have one near in your city, you must try it. It's really cool.
Tomorrow we are going to head to Durham to do a little shopping at The Stre*ets at South*point and then eat lunch at my all time favorite, P*F Cha*ngs. I am so excited because we just found out they will be building one near us. So yeah!!! No more long drives to Durham to eat at the PF!! Woohoo!
I am so looking forward to our trip to the mountains next weekend. I asked my supervisor if I could go into work on Monday (it's a holiday and we are closed) and work and then take Friday off instead. He said no problem. I'm so lucky to have a flexible work situation. Did I mention I LOVE my job! They also let me work a few hours from home, take shorter lunches and then I get to leave early on Fridays. They call it "flex time." Which is very cool. Much better than punching a 9 to 5 time clock, for sure.
We are still trying to think of some stuff to do while in Boone. I was thinking of maybe going to Grand*father Mountain. And, of course, no trip to Boone would be complete without having dinner or lunch at The Dan*iel Bo*one Inn. Yummy. Other than that, I'm not really sure what to do in Boone. It's a big ski town, well at least the surrounding area is, but there isn't as much to do in the summer time. Everybody thinks we are absolutely crazy for not going to the beach, but I think some peace and quiet in the mountains will do us good.
This morning I told Jonathan that the cabin we are staying in doesn't have a television. You should have seen the look on his face when I told him that. The boy can't live without his tv. Now when we lived in Germany, we lived off base in a town with very few Americans and we could barely pick up AFN (Armed Forces Network), so we only had one fuzzy American television channel. So if we could live for 4 years like that, I think Jonathan can make do without a tv for 4 whole days. Don't you? In all actuality, I was just kidding with him anyway. I'm sure they probably have a television, but I just wanted to see his reaction.
I just realized something, without Skyler in the house, it's pretty damn boring around here. I have absolutely nothing to talk about. The good news is, things are going pretty smoothly with Jonathan and I, so nothing to discuss there. Damn my life is boring! So boring, that I think I will get off here for now and watch some Cold*Case with Jonathan. Until tomorrow....
How many frigging pieces does this damn swingset have?
Peace... - Thursday, May 26, 2005
So Skyler left with mom and Bob on Monday for two whole weeks in Tennessee. I can only say one thing about our household....Peace. Things have been so quiet at home, that we do not know what to do with ourselves! Poor little Chase seems like he is in heaven without his sissy running around screaming and carrying on like she normally does.
Mom called me yesterday and said that she was going to "air mail" Skyler home. Evidently she is giving them a really hard time. No surprises there! She actually said, "I don't know how you guys do it." Hell, I don't know how we do it sometimes! She can be a perfect angel one day and the next, she turns into the Devil's Spawn or something. Yikes!
Mom said that she was giving her an especially hard time last night as they were trying to get her to go to bed. They normally don't even attempt to spank her, but Mom was having such a bad time with her that she got out the fly swatter and "threatened" to spank her.
She said, "Now Skyler, if you don't start minding and get your pajamas on right now, Mamaw is going to spank your bottom."
And Skyler's reply was, "Go ahead and spank me, I don't care." She said this as she had her hand upon her hip and was giving Mom the "evil eye." Now please tell me what you are supposed to do with a child that has no fear of her parents or grandparents whatsoever!
The one good thing about Skyler is she is an angel at school. She is also normally really good whenever we are out in public. It just seems she is this way at home. It's like she knows exactly what buttons to push to send you over the edge. We are in for some rough waters ahead as girlfriends grows up, I'm sure.
So I have been making plans for two trips today. The first is a trip to the mountains next weekend. Jonathan has to work all of this holiday weekend because he gave his assistant manager the entire weekend off. So I'm making plans for us to go to the mountains for the first weekend in June. Sometimes it helps to work with REALTORS. One of my committee members is renting us a cabin in Blowing Rock for 50% off. So that's really nice. I never realized how expensive cabins were. I mean we normally get the discount coupons for the good ole Da*ys Inn and pay like $29.99, so renting a cabin was a huge shock, even with the 50% off. But hell, you've got to splurge every once in awhile, eh?
We are going to spend 3 nights in the cabin. Little Man will be staying with his babysitter. Mom and Bob will bring Skyler to Blowing Rock on Monday and will meet us at Twe*etsie Railroad where they are having Day out with Tho*mas the Train. Skyler just loves Thomas. So it's a win/win for everybody. We get to spend a day with Skyler and my parents and we don't have to drive all the way to Tennessee to pick her up! Woohoo!
I feel so ashamed to say it, but it feels so good to have a wee break from Skyler. She is absolutely hell on wheels right now. I know when she gets back from TN she is going to be even more hellacious because my parents let her get away with murder. But the two week break is so worth it. I know, I'm a horrible mother!
Getting back to the trip to Blowing Rock... I can't wait to go to the mountains and have 3 whole days of nothing but me and Jonathan. I'm trying to think of some exciting stuff to do while we are there. Most people can't believe that we would want to go to the mountains and not to the beach, but Jonathan just doesn't really like the beach. When we went to Cancun a few years ago, he only stepped foot out on the beach one time the entire week we were there. And whenever we go on our cruises, we never go to any beach. We did go to Megan's Bay in St. Thomas a few years ago, but we weren't there very long.
Speaking of vacations, I also made a deposit on our next cruise today!!! Woohoo!!! We are going to cruise on the Car*nival Lib*erty in November. It's a brand spanking new ship that hasn't even been built yet?!? It sets sail from Spain in July. So that will be so cool to cruise on a brand new ship. We can't wait!! Here are the Lib*erty's ports for our cruise:
1. San Juan
2. St. Thomas
3. Antiqua
4. Tortola
5. Nassau, Bahamas
We've been to St. Thomas and Nassau, but we haven't been to the other ports. It's an 8 day cruise. I am so excited!!! I really wanted to try another cruise line this time because we have been on Car*nival for all 4 of our cruises. But when I started comparing prices, no one can even come close to the deals you can get with Car*nival. I mean an 8 day cruise for $750 bucks! You can't beat it! That includes all your meals and everything. We just have to pay for our flight, excursions and incidentals.
Okay, enough about the cruise. Jonathan and I have been kicking back and taking it easy this whole week with Skyler gone. Little Man isn't feeling very good. He felt really hot when I picked him up from his babysitter's this afternoon. I took his temperature and it was 101.2. I gave him some Tylenol and a cool bath and we put him to bed. He was really sleepy and didn't feel well at all. I'm hoping he will feel better by in the morning. It sucks really bad when a baby is sick. They can't tell you what hurts them and you just have to guess. Poor Little Man. He is such a good baby and I hate to see him sick.
Well I guess I have rambled on enough for one day. We don't have anything planned for this weekend. I think Jonathan is going to play golf on Saturday morning and Saturday evening I'm having a "girl's night out" with my friend Sam. So not much going on but some rest and relaxation here. Until we meet again....
I'm too sexy for my bib
It Was a Looong & Busy Weekend... - Monday, May 23, 2005
Oh where to begin.... This past weekend was just a blur. Let's see, first on Friday night we headed to the coliseum to see Ses*ame Street Live. Skyler loved it, of course. And you know we just COULD NOT walk out of there without purchasing an $8.00 Elmo balloon! Yikes! My parents drove up on Friday afternoon, so they kept Little Man for us while the three of us went to the performance. We were sitting on the front row off the floor and Skyler was blessed with three hugs from the following performers: Prairie Dawn, Grover & one that has a nose that honks (whose name escapes me at the moment). It was great to have Jonathan with us because he normally doesn't attend stuff like that. But with our new found relationship, he is trying to do more stuff with us as a family. So way to go hubby!!
Skyler Dancing at Ses*ame Street Live
So then it was up at 6:30 a.m. on Saturday morning to prepare ourselves for dance recital practice. Things went great for the dress rehearsal. Skyler was in rare form with no "meltdowns" or "tantrums" all evening. Way to go Skyler! So after 2 1/2 hours of dance recital rehearsal it was home for a long afternoon nap. One that Mommy took part in on this particular day, thank ya very much.... After our nice nap it was off to one of our favorite family restaurants. It was me, Jonathan, Skyler, Chase, Papaw, Mamaw and Uncle Bruce. As always, Uncle Bruce was 30 minutes late for dinner. The poor boy can't make it anywhere but to work on time.
So then Sunday morning it was time to get ready for the actual dance recital. It didn't actually start until 1:00 p.m. (big mistakes as this is Skyler's EXACT nap time!!). So we got dressed with minimal fuss around 11:00 a.m. and headed off to the auditorium. Once we arrived at the auditorium, all hell broke loose. Skyler decided she wanted to keep her dance bag with her while she was waiting on her turn to dance. She was actually sitting in the balcony with her class and the rest of us were sitting down in the audience. I told her she couldn't keep her bag because mommy needed to keep it for her because it had her change of clothes for her next dance number, etc. Well she began to have a "meltdown". Then daddy arrived and, as usual, wanted to just give her her way to shut her up. She took the bag back to her seat and sat down and proceeded to take everything out of the bag. So I took it away from her and we'll just say, she lost her sh--. She started screaming and yelling and throwing herself on the ground. So I took Miss Hellion to the bathroom and tried to calm her down. She proceeded to keep yelling, screaming and throwing herself on the ground.
So after about 10 minutes of that I proceeded to drag her down the stairs and outside of the auditorium, screaming and kicking all the way. Oh the looks the people were giving me could have pierced me like knives..... So we made it outside and had a nice "talk" at a tree. I was about 30 seconds from hauling her ass out to the van and heading home and saying, "To hell with this damn dance recital." My hell child was having a major temper tantrum. It was approximately 5 minutes to show time and I FINALLY got her calmed down and back to her seat in the balcony. It's a good thing I didn't put mascara on Miss Hellion or we would have been in major trouble.
I may "look" like an Angel...
But deep down....
I can say that she made it through the entire program without a hitch. There weren't any smiles while on stage, but she remembered her routine and performed beautifully. I will also report that Chase was a perfect angel, as always, during the 2 1/2 hour performance. He sat quietly on mommy's, daddy's and mamaw's laps during the show (with a few excited squeals put in for good measure).
After the show daddy, papaw and Uncle Bruce gave her flowers. She really ate that stuff up! She thought she was major hot stuff with her flowers. She also gave a rose to her dance teacher, Miss C.
Skyler Receives Flowers from Her Adoring Fans
After such a busy weekend Jonathan and I decided to have a night to ourselves. It's not often that we have a babysitter for the kids. We hardly ever get to go out alone since all of our family lives in Tennessee. So we headed to the movies to see Sahara and then to eat dinner. All in all it was a good weekend, but now we are both exhausted.
Did I mention that my mom and dad took Skyler home with them to Tennessee for two weeks!!! So no Miss Skyler for two whole weeks?!?! What will we ever do with ourselves? They are taking her camping and fishing. Oh what fun they have to look forward to. When I talked to mom this afternoon she said Skyler had two "meltdowns" on the way home. Hmmm, me thinks that we will be making a trip to TN to pick up our hellion sooner than two weeks!!!
Oh the peace in the house this evening. It has been so peaceful. Little Man didn't know what to think without his loud mouth sissy hanging around and bothering him all evening. He had a peaceful dinner and a quick evening nap after dinner. Then he was down like a champ at exactly 8:00 p.m.
I know we are going to miss Skyler dearly, but you know, sometimes it's nice to get a break! Speaking of breaks. Did I tell you we are already planning our next cruise! Yup, we are going to sail on the Car*nival Lib*erty in November! Yippee!!!
Well I guess I have rambled on long enough for one day. Hopefully I'll have more time this week to write more entries since Miss Priss is gone. Until we meet again....
It Was a Looong & Busy Weekend... Monica;
Busy, Busy, Busy... - Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Life is pretty good at the moment. I still can't say enough about Jonathan. The difference in our marriage these last two weeks has been AMAZING. I just hope and pray that we continue to keep the communication open. I know Jonathan is getting tired of our late night "talks". He has started coming to bed earlier because he knows I have to have at least 45 minutes to jack my jaws to him. He even left in the middle of one of his favorite tv shows last night. He was like, "Hmmm, do I really want to watch Blind Justice? Or do I need to get my ass upstairs and do the talking with the wife so I can get to bed at a decent hour?" He evidently decided to head on up to bed because he was in bed at 10:15.
I was just beginnig to watch the new Britney & Kevin show, Chaotic. Now mind you I was only 15 minutes into the program that I had DVR'd, but I have just two words for Miss (well she is Mrs. now) Britney, TRAILER TRASH. Geeze, I thought I was raised in the back woods, but that girl has got some major problems! I was cracking up! I'm sure I will have to watch the rest of the program to get the full effect, but the first 15 or 20 minutes was pure hell!
Not much happened yesterday. Jonathan left work early and picked up Little Man at the babysitters. I picked up Skyler and headed home to give her a quick bath and then the four of us headed to Skyler's gymnastics. Then it was on to dinner, home to get the kids ready for bed and then off to bed for us. Things are going to get at least a little less busy though because Skyler's dance classes are over.
Tonight I have to take her to have her picture made in her recital costume. I just can't decide what to do with her hair. I'm a horrible hairstylist. I guess I'll try and put it up into a bun or something. It definitely has to be up for the recital, but I kind of wanted to leave it down for her pictures. She looks so much better with her hair down.
She gave us hell this morning. She went to bed no problem last night and slept all through the night, which was nice. But she was cranky this morning and didn't want to get up. Jonathan finally got her up and got her into the kitchen to fix her some breakfast while I was upstairs getting little man changed and dressed. She couldn't decide what she wanted to eat, he named through at least 5 different things and she FINALLY settled on some cereal. She hoo haa'd around for another 10 minutes and never took a bite of her cereal. In the meantime, I had already come downstairs and fed Chase while she was still sitting there staring at her cereal. Jonathan had already packed the baby's bag and made Skyler's lunch.
The two of them sing songs to each other all the time. Jonathan was singing, "Skyler is daddy's number one girl..." Well when she wouldn't eat he started singing, "Mommy is daddy's number one girl." Girlfriend absolutely FREAKED out! She went into 3 year old hysterics at the table. Crying, screaming and saying, "I'm your number one girl daddy NOT mommy!!!" It was all downhill after that.... We finally decided she wasn't going to eat her breakfast so I basically dragged her back into her room to put her dress on for school. I let her pick out the dress she wanted, because God forbid if I picked it out for her, there would be something wrong with it. Either it doesn't "twirl" or it itches, or perhaps she doesn't like the color, etc. You get the point. So I had let her pick out the dress, but once she got it on she decided she looked like a baby. Geeze! So then it was another struggle to get her dressed and out the door. She makes Jonathan carry her and the baby out every morning. Why, because she can! She loves telling Jonathan when to "jump" and "how high to jump." He thought he had it bad with his wife bossing him around, well she bosses him around more than I ever thought! Girlfriend is so spoiled it isn't even funny.
So after we all get out to our cars, Jonathan was so frazzled that he put Chase in my car instead of his. He got him back out and then liftes Skyler up into her carseat. Afterwards he gave her a kiss and then he came to give me a kiss and she went into caniptions again! She can't STAND to see Jonathan and I kissing. I think it is just totally freaking her out. She is actually jealous. Ah the life and times of a 3 year old.... I just hope Chase doesn't turn out to be a drama queen like Skyler. For now he is a really laid back baby and just rolls with the punches. We'll see how long that lasts.
My parents are coming this weekend to go to Skyler's recital. Me, mom and Skyler are going to see Sesa*me Street Live Friday night. Oh what fun! Then it's dress rehearsal on Saturday and the actual recital is on Sunday. Jonathan and I are hoping that on Saturday or Sunday night we can go out alone for some quality time together. Then my parents are taking Skyler back to TN with them for 2 weeks of camping. Two whole weeks without the little terror! Nah, we will miss her dearly, but it's nice to have a break every once in awhile. Although 2 weeks is quite a long time. It will give us some quality time to spend alone with Chase though and Jonathan will get a full night's rest for two whole weeks!
Chase was supposed to have his 9 month check-up yesterday with his doctor. The nurse called to cancel his appointment saying that the doctor was sick. This is like the 4th time they've had to cancel an appointment because Dr. B was sick. They cancelled on Skyler like 3 times in a row once and it drove me absolutely bonkers. I mean we are all entitled to be sick, but when they wait and call when you've already taken off from work and yoru heading out the door, well that just plain pisses me off! You know how some doctor's offices will charge you if you fail to cancel an appointment within 24 hours? Well maybe a doctor should be charged your missed time off from work if they don't cancel in 24 hours, huh? I'm just kidding, but it sounds good doesn't it?
Well I think I have rambled on long enough for one day. I need to get my ass to work. Until tomorrow...
It's a Monday, Blah.... - Monday, May 16, 2005
Nothing exciting to really write about today. I hate Mondays. It seems you barely have time to get caught up on laundry, cleaning up the house, playing with the babies before the weekend is over and it's back to work again. Blah. I need another vacation. I know, I know, we just went on vacation back in February, but I need another break. With my life these past few weeks, I think I am in "burn out city" or something. The stress of all the crap going on in our marriage, Jonathan's medical problems, etc. I feel like I'm just heading down hill or something. Ugh, complain, complain, complain.
I have our yearly attorney seminar at work on Friday. We have about 40 people coming, so not a big group or anything. I ordered their catering today. I'm going out on a limb and trying a new caterer which is probably stupid on a group like this, but what the hell, right? It's about 80% men so feed them some meat and they will be happy. It will be nice to get this meeting out of the way though. Next thing I really need to concentrate on is convention. Our dept. is going to be a little different this summer because one of the girls goes out on maternity leave next month. We are lucky we have two summer interns who will be coming in to help while she is away. When I was on maternity leave last year, they didn't have any extra help.
As I said before, nothing really going on today. Jonathan has a MASSIVE migraine. He came home fairly early from work and came straight in and took some of his new migraine medicine. He did have some samples of one medicine that dissolved in his mouth and he really liked it because it gave him immediate relief. The doctor gave him some new samples of a pill format and it must take a lot longer to take effect or something. He came home, took the medicine and then went outside with me and the kids to play on Skyler's new swingset. Skyler was being bratty and was refusing to try and learn how to swing herself. She just wants to boss her daddy around and tell him what to do and make him swing her for an hour. When we switched and he started swinging Chase and I was swinging her, she got all pissed off and started throwing a major temper tantrum. Girlfriend has got to learn that she doesn't get her way ALL the time.
After the temper tantrum was over she heard in the distance the ringing of the ice cream man's truck. May someone shoot the man who invented the ice cream truck! We broke down and bought her an ice cream, but made her put it in the freezer until after supper. She ate her supper and was then allowed to partake of some yummy ice cream.
Little man went to bed like a champ, as always. I just hope and pray that he stays as good as he has been since he was born. He is no problem to put to bed at all. Give him his bottle at 8:00 and lay him down at 8:10 and he is down for the count until the crack of dawn the next day. You can't ask for much more than that.
Last night Jonathan and I went to bed around 11:00 and I had to "talk" to him until around 1:30. I know he is getting tired of my "talk" sessions that run well into the night. But I told him he needs to come to bed earlier. At least we are communicating, but I know it has been rough on him staying up so late. The boy needs his beauty sleep that's for sure. He requires more sleep than the babies. And, of course, Skyler work up around 2:00 or so. So he had to head downstairs and take care of her and lay on the couch for a bit before he came to bed. I guess it's no wonder he has a massive headache after that, huh?
Well for not having squat to talk about tonight, it looks like I rambled on about nothing. I'll end for now and hopefully will have more interesting stuff to talk about tomorrow.
Diagnosis - Sunday, May 15, 2005
Jonathan's appointment with the doctor was Friday. Everything went well. We now know at least that he doesn't have some kind of liver cancer or anything. The diagnosis was cirrhosis of the liver. Basically 50% of Jonathan's liver is scarred for life. The good news is the doctor said that a person only need 1/14 of their liver to function to survive. The bad news is, it's irreversible. I know the doctor thought Jonathan was some big time alcoholic or something, but he isn't. That's what is so confusing. He probably drinks 2 to 3 times a month, but with the extent of damage to Jonathan's liver, it looks like he was a really bad alcoholic. They also checked for hepatitis, etc. but luckily he didn't have any of that. The doctor also said that we didn't catch this at the beginning, that basically he is about half way though the disease.
His liver blood levels were much better than last time, thanks to Jonathan not drinking a drop since we originally went in. When the doctor told him that, you could see how happy Jonathan was, but then when he fully explained everything and told Jonathan that basically he could NEVER drink again, he finally understood. I don't think Jonathan is going to have a HUGE problem with not drinking, but it is just kind of a social thing. I'm sure his buddies are going to harass him and make fun of him when he orders a sweet tea instead of a beer, but when your life is on the line, you have to think of yourself and your family, not what your friends/peers think.
The doctor basically told him that if he ever drank again, or continued to drink, he would die. I think that was pretty sobering for Jonathan to hear. I really believe Jonathan thought that everything was going to be alright when he went back and he could go back to the way life was, but now we know differently. I still think he harbors some kind of bad feelings like this is my fault or something. It seems whenever I say something bad is going to happen, it does. That's just me talking silly I'm sure. Now if I could just get him to stop dipping Copenhagen, life would be all good.
Not much else going on this weekend. We just basically did the family thing. Yesterday I let Jonathan sleep in until almost 10:00 a.m. I got up with the kids around 7:00 a.m. and we all ate breakfast and played. Then Jonathan got up and mowed the yard. I then took the kids and headed to Wal-Mart for the necessities. Did I ever tell you that I DESPISE the Wal-Mart here. It is so crowded and they are so stupid. Not only do you have to go to a "special" checkout line just to get razor blades (because we have so many thieves they can no longer keep them out in the regular toiletries area), but now we must go to a separate check out line to get frigging baby formula! Geeze. I know they are doing it to cut down on thievery, but please, for us honest folks still out there, this really SUCKS! Now I know why more and more people go to Target. The good news is the are actually building a new Wal-Mart less than 5 miles from our house on the new portion of the interstate. I just hope it doesn't end up like the other one across town.
I went to Wal-Mart to buy baby formula, razor blades, diapers and baby food and I walked out of there spending $137.00. Geeze! Babies are expensive! Of course, I did throw in a new Tinkerbell sheet set for Skyler seeing as she only had one set of twin sheets and when I washed them I had to hurry up and put them back on. But still. And I even buy the no name brand infant formula. I do spend the extra money on Pampers though because I hate those no name brand diapers. I've tried them all, but still return to Pampers Cruisers.
After my wonderful trip to the store, we headed back home and woke Jonathan up from his nap. I figured since he worked hard in the yard all day I would take both kids with me so he could relax for a bit. After we got home we all got dressed and headed to a local Japanese steakhouse for dinner. I hadn't eaten anything all day other than a couple of muffins Skyler and I baked together, but once I started eating, I got full really fast. But it was good what little I ate.
It must have been prom night around town because there were girls in prom dresses EVERYWHERE. We sat with 5 at our table. Skyler said, "Mommy there sure are a lot of princesses here today!" She thinks everytime she sees a girl dressed up with really pretty hair, that they are a princess. The girls sitting at our table got a kick out of that. And as always, people commented on how well the kids behave at dinner. I wish I could say they behaved as well at home! But I am proud they have always been good out in public.
Skyler got up at 5:30 a.m. this morning. Around 11:30 last night Nikita barked and wanted to be let down so she could get a drink of water. Jonathan didn't put her back in bed with Skyler so when she woke up at 5:30 and Nikita wasn't there, she freaked out. Jonathan got up and came downstairs with her and tried to get her to go back to sleep, but she was having none of it. Then as soon as the sun came out she wanted to get up. So they laid on the couch and watched cartoons and Chase got up around 6:45 a.m. Jonathan fed both of them their breakfast and he let me sleep in. We usually take turns sleeping in. On Saturdays he usually sleeps in and on Sundays I sleep in. Since we both work and take care of the kids together, that's only fair. I'm lucky that I do have a husband that helps me with the kids. And he is trying to do better about keeping things up here at the house.
Right now as we speak he and some of his friends from work are outside putting Skyler's new swingset together. Skyler is so excited she couldn't hardly lay down for her nap this afternoon. They have been working on it for hours now. I'm sure it will take most of the day to finish it up. It will be great when they finally get it up though. Skyler loves to swing. Now we just have to teach her how to swing herself so she isn't constantly making us come swing her!
I finally download some of the pictures from my digital camera. Remember a month or so ago when I wrote about pulling that guy out of his SUV? Well here is a picture of his car after the police and everyone arrived:
It's not really a good photo, but I didn't want to go back up there in get in their way or anything. It's pretty amazing that the guy walked away, huh? I'm just happy he was alright. I still remember as I was running up to the SUV I was thinking to myself, "Please, please, please do not let me see someone who is dead." I was really surprised when I got there and he was fully awake and moving around. God was definitely with the man on that day.
Well I guess that is enough for today. I'll end with a few pics of my babies! Until tomorrow.....
Today is the Day.... - Friday, May 13, 2005
Blogger is really pissing me off. I've had problems several times that when I go to post my entry it doesn't work. So I write a few paragraphs and then save it as a draft before I continue writing. I couldn't tell you the countless times I have written an entire entry and went to post and lost the whole damn thing. I just had about 4 paragraphs written and did a save draft and it frigging disappeared again! Geeze Blogger, get your act together please. I think I'm going to start writing my entries in Word and posting them over into Blogger or something.
I KNOW this didn’t happen again!!!! What the fu—is going on with Blogger? I just typed another two paragraphs and it frigging lost it again! What the hell is the deal with Blogger today! Ok, now I’m going to frigging type this crap in Word! Geeze!
Ok, can I start this again… Where was I? Oh yeah, today is the day that Jonathan and I find out what the results are from all of the testing he has done over the last few weeks. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. His appointment is today at 4:00. I’m so nervous I could puke.
Things have been going so well for us this past week. We have communicated more, been more loving and more intimate together this past week than we have been in years!! It’s amazing what a little communication can do for a marriage. It’s weird that it took something totally off the wall to get us communicating. I won’t even begin to go into detail here about what happened because I can only imagine what would be said. But we’ll just say it was a blessing and I’m so glad we finally sat down and figured out that we do still love each other, we have a lot to be thankful for and it’s about time we got our asses in gears and got our shi- together! Whew, that was a mouthful wasn’t it? The “spark” is back in our marriage for the first time in years.
I knew all along I still loved him, but I just didn’t think we could overcome all of the problems we have been experiencing. Now I know we still have a lot of work and a long road ahead of us, but it’s certainly nice to be happy once again. Just keep your fingers crossed that things continue to look up for us. It’s kind of funny because we have been doing a lot of hugging and kissing and being really affectionate to each other and I think it is freaking Skyler out. We have both always been affectionate with our kids, but not necessarily with each other in these last few years. So when we started kissing and hugging and ticking each other this past week, Skyler didn’t know what to think about it. She thought it was very strange. Yesterday as Jonathan was putting her into the van for me to take her to school, he reached out and gave me a big kiss and Skyler was like, “Daddy! What did you do that for?!?” I thought it was quite funny. I think she may even be a little jealous!
So yesterday Jonathan and I went to Skyler’s end of school party at a local park. We had lots of fun. Skyler was there with all her little friends. It was amazing to see how Skyler’s teacher gets 12 three-year-old’s to stand in line (by last name no less) and walk properly everywhere they go. How the woman can control 12 when I can’t control 1 I will never know.
We played lots of games and had a good ole time. The teachers even got the parents involved in some of the games. At one point the parents had to try and do a hula-hoop for 20 seconds. Now back in the day when I was a size 3 (many, many moons ago no less), I was actually pretty good with a hula-hoop. In fact, when I was 8 years old I won a hula-hoop contest at a hotel in Daytona Beach, Florida. Well needless to say, many pounds later and many years later my body just isn’t what it used to be. I couldn’t even keep the frigging thing up at all!
So after lots of fun and games in the hotter than hell sun yesterday (where the temperature was a whopping 84 degrees in early May!), we had a cookout. Everything went quite well considering we had over 50 three-year olds. Skyler ate her little hot dog and then asked if she could eat her cupcake. I was in charge of bringing some cupcakes so leave it up to my non-baking ass, I just went to Sam’s and bought some monstrous cupcakes. We don’t give Skyler that much sweets very often, but I let her eat one of the monster cupcakes. About 3 minutes after she had downed the sweet, sugary confection, she said, “Oh Mommy, my tummy hurts.” And then she said, “Mommy, why did you MAKE me eat that cupcakes!” Uh, hello! I didn’t force the frigging cupcake down my child. But she has to blame someone other than herself, you know. So a few seconds later girlfriend begins to gag and we try and run out to the grass where she commences upchucking her wonderful monster cupcake. Yeah, teach my daughter to eat those sweet nasty treats, huh?
After she was finished I was going to go ahead and take her on home, but she would have none of it. Take her away from the park where she is playing with 50 other 3 year olds. I don’t THINK so! So I told her teacher that if she had any more problems to give us a call. By that time Jonathan and I had to head on back to work. The teacher never called and she was going strong when I picked her up later that afternoon, so I guess all was well.
After I left work and picked her up yesterday afternoon we then went to ballet that evening. It was her last official ballet class of the season before her recital next weekend. I can say I am so happy! Between the Tuesday evening gymnastics and the Thursday evening ballet, working full time, new baby, etc. it was pretty tough. I think this summer we are just going to stick to gymnastics and then maybe only do one thing in the fall. Twice a week is too much on a 3 year old. Hell, it’s too much on a mommy who works full time.
Well I guess that basically covers it for yesterday. It was good to hear from Caroline and I actually saw where someone else signed my guestbook! How exciting! Anyway, until tomorrow (we hope at least). I’ll update you on what the doc says this afternoon. Keep us in your thoughts today!!!!
Getting Back Into the Swing of Things... - Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Oh life is looking up.
After so much drama for these past few months, things are definitely looking up for Jonathan and I. We just have one more hurdle to cross with Jonathan's health. Friday is "D-Day" when we find out what is really going on with him. I know I haven't had time to mention here lately about what has been going on with him, but he has something seriously wrong with his liver. His doctor pretty much told him that he needed to make a "complete lifestyle change." I.e., no more drinking of alcoholic beverages. Not that Jonathan is an alcoholic or anything, but he does drink a couple of times a month with his buddies. Jonathan's only problem is when he does drink with his buddies, it's to excess. Not one or two beers, but something like 12 to 15. Now my hubby is a "big boy" and weighs over 250 pounds so he can put some beer away, but that is a little excessive.To tell Jonathan that he can no longer drink was a big shock and "lifestyle change" for him. I seriously think when the doctor discussed it with us, Jonathan thought it was some kind of "conspiracy" or something I had with the doctor to get him to quit drinking alcohol. Jonathan has basically been a "social drinker" since he was probably 15 years old. Anyone who has ever been in the military knows what a huge part of military life it is. Now I'm not saying EVERYONE drinks or anything (because I never have), but it was a big part of his life.
Since the kids have been born he hasn't drank with his friends as often, but when he does go out, he loves to sit with the boys and put back a few brewskies. So when the doctor told him he had liver problems and if he would like to live past the age of 40, he would need to stop drinking, well we'll just say it wasn't a happy day in the household. Top this with all of the stress and strain that has been going on in our marriage, the no communication, basic lack of affection, etc. that we had going on. Well it just spelled disaster with a capital "D".
I am really worried about what we are going to find out on Friday, so please keep your fingers crossed and keep us in your prayers that it isn't as serious as the doctor was originally making it out to be. The thought of something happening to Jonathan just really scares the hell out of me. We have been friends since we were 15 years old and we have been married since we were 20 years old, so we have basically been together for over half our lives.
We have really been communicating and being very attentive to each other since our 8 hour "discussion" we had this past weekend. We are both committed to giving 100% to this marriage and to keeping our family together. I just hope and pray that we can both continue to make time for each other, keep the lines of communication open, not bitch, etc. Marriage is hard work I say. And I think that was one of our problems, we haven't been concentrating on making this marriage work. We've just been blaming each other for one thing or another instead of trying to correct what has been wrong. Does that make any sense?
Anyway, I'm sure you are bored to tears hearing me talk about our "marital problems." Let's move on to other things for now...
Last night we all went to gymnastics with Skyler. We don't usually all go together. Normally Jonathan will come home early and take care of Chase while Skyler and I go to gymnastics and out to dinner. It gives Jonathan a few hours of "quality time" with Chase. But we all went on Tuesday and then went out to eat at the Crac*ker Bar*rell. As we were heading into the restaurant this older couple stopped us and looked at the kids and the wife said, "You have a beautiful family." I thanked her and as we sat down I thought, "Man itis hard to believe that Jonathan and I would screw up our family. We are two of the luckiest people in the world. We have two beautiful and healthy children, a wonderful home, great jobs. We've got to make this shi- work!"
Well sorry to run for now, but I need to finish some stuff up. I'll write more later.Getting Back Into the Swing of Things... Monica;
Oh Where to Begin...... - Tuesday, May 10, 2005
I guess your probably wondering where the hell I have been for the past few months. Can I just say one word? "Hell!" My life has been a series of misfortunate events and total hell in my marriage. Things were SO bad that we finally had a blow up and the big "D" word was discussed. Now I ask you, I don't think either of us are the best parents in the world. We aren't bad, but with both of us working and the strains of raising a small family with the two of us in the house, I can only imagine what it was going to be like trying to do it on our own.
Jonathan and I have not really been happy for close to 5 years. Things only got worse when the kids came along because most of our time was totally devoted to work or the kids and we totally let our marriage go. There was no communication, no affection, no love. It was kind of like we had settled into a "routine" and we didn't make much time for ourselves.
I know, I know, only a few months ago we took a vacation away from the kids and took the cruise, but we really didn't communicate that much during our entire vacation. I can only say one thing about our marriage, "It has been B-A-D for quite some time." I'm sure you have probably picked up a lot of it from my journal, but I've never really been detailed.
Anyway, moving on with the story. The straw that broke the camel's back was a week or so ago when we had a row in front of Skyler. Not really a screaming match, but we were not being nice to each other. It was early in the morning before work and things just escalated from one thing to another. Finally at the end of it Jonathan finally said, "You know what, I'm just tired. I'm tired of this marriage and I just can't take it any more." Now we have said these things to each other before, but this time I really knew he meant it. We hadn't tried to work at our marriage we had just been rolling along from day to day.
So for almost a week I tried and tried to get Jonathan to talk about it, to no avail. He wouldn't discuss filing for divorce, moving out, etc. He just wouldn't talk about it whatsoever. He just kept saying he was tired and it was over. He also kept saying that he wasn't just going to "walk out the door," that he wouldn't do that to us, but that we were over. It took me several days to comprehend what was going on. Because not only do we have this going on, but Jonathan is having some SERIOUS medical problems that we don't really know a whole lot about at this time. I won't even go there until we know more from the testing he has had done the past few weeks. So, more on that at a later date.
But we had never resolved anything, everything was just kind of in "limbo." I began looking at apartments in the area, thinking of how I was going to get the kids to and from daycare alone, how life was going to be without Jonathan, etc. It was all really stressing.
So finally Saturday morning I pin him down and try and get him to talk. It is almost impossible to have a serious discussion with a 3 year old and a 9 month old in the house. Skyler was jumping up and down on Jonathan and we couldn't discuss anything, so I called up our babysitter and asked her if she could keep the kids for the day and possibly all night. She said no problem (thank the Lord for her). Jonathan dropped the kids off at the babysitters and came back home and we sat down and had an 8 hour discussion. Yes 8 HOURS!! We had 5 years of crap to get over and talk about. Things that wasn't going right, things the other needed to change, things we needed to change on our own, etc. The first 3 hours or so were discussions on how it was going to be after we divorced. Where I was going to live, how involved he wanted to be, etc. And I think at some point after I was laying it on the line for him he finally had an epiphany and realized that he didn't want to lose his family and we both realized that we are in still in love and that we didn't want our family to break up.
I couldn't even begin to go into the details, but it seems that we have finally made some decisions about how things need to change. So we are at a much happier place right now. Things have gone great so far and I know that we are really going to have to "work" at this marriage and not just let everything slide to the side.
As Jonathan and I were laying in bed last night talking he said something to me. He said, "As you and I were talking on the phone yesterday and we were hanging up, I told you I loved you and Eric said, was that your wife?" He was like, "Um yeah." And Eric said, "Man I've never heard you say that before."
So for now all is well in the world and keep hopefully we can make this marriage work. I mean how hard would it be to throw away 15 years of marriage away? Two beautiful and healthy children, we have a nice home, good jobs, etc. To let that go would have been a tragedy.
Ok, I have rambled enough for now. I need to get off my butt and fix the blog back up. I notice my picture isn't working, some links, etc., but this blog has been the last thing on my mind for the last few months. I'll update everyone on Jonathan's condition as soon as we know more. Keeps us in your thoughts and prayers!!!Oh Where to Begin...... Monica;
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