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Another Yucky Day - Sunday, January 30, 2005 Don't you really hate it when the weather is bad on a weekend. No, it can't snow or ice during the week when you have to go to work. It has to do it on the weekend when your off! I'm lucky, if its really bad, our office closes. But for the last two weeks we have had bad weather on the weekend and not during the work week. That really sucks. So for two weekends in a row, the kids and I have been stuck in the house. Skyler and I both are definitely NOT "homebodys". We like to get out and run the roads. But when there is a sheet of ice on the road, you tend to stay home and tough it out. We are both going stir crazy. Skyler keeps asking if its time to go to school. Now if I can get her to ask that when she is in high school, I would be doing well. :-) Chase and Skyler both are snoozing at the moment. Its hard to get them both down at once. Jonathan got up with both of them this morning. Chase woke up at 6:45 a.m. I think his days of sleeping in until 8:30 a.m. are over. He doesn't cry when he wakes up, he just lays there and talks to himself and sings. After about 45 minutes of listening to him, I finally hollered at Jonathan to come up and get him. Jonathan usually sleeps in on Saturdays and I sleep in on Sundays. At least if we work it that way, one of us gets a good sleeping in day a week. Jonathan definitely likes his sleep. He has been sleeping downstairs in the baby's room for a few weeks now. His snoring is just so bad that neither I or Chase can sleep. I know its time I move Chase into his own bed in his own room, but he sleeps so good in the bassinet. Plus I love waking up and looking over at him. But if I don't get him in his own room soon, I'm sure there is going to be hell to pay. I can't believe we are going to be without them for two weeks. My sister's stepdaughter is getting married on February 12th. We are leaving for our cruise on the 18th, so we thought we would drive to TN to drop them off on the 16th. But if we are going to be in TN on the 12th for the wedding, there really isn't any sense in making another trip to take them back. So if we drop them off on the 13th after the wedding, that means we will be without them for two whole weeks! Yikes! My babysitter can't believe that we could live without our kids for that long. It is going to be strange to not be with them, but it will be nice in a way to. Maybe I can get some things done around the house before we go. Not! I'm sure we will spend most of our time just hanging out and wondering what to do with ourselves. One of my closest friend's mother died this week. I feel really bad for her. She is only 35 and both of her parents and a sister are gone. She isn't married and has no children. She spent a lot of her time taking care of her mother at the nursing home. Three nights a week and on the weekends she went to the nursing home to take care of her mom. I know its going to be a big adjustment for her now that her mother is gone. I can't imagine the day when I lose my mother. Another journaler I read, Caroline, her mother is very sick. She is a diabetic like my mother. My mother is a really bad diabetic, but all in all she has been okay. She is disabled and doesn't work, but she hasn't spent a lot of time in the hospital. I hope Caroline's mother gets well soon. I dread the day when I to will lose my mother. I think the only thing worse than losing a parent is losing a child or spouse. I know we all die someday, but death is very hard to deal with. Jonathan has gone to work today. He was gone for 3 days last week to TN to visit with his grandmother. She is in the hospital with pneumonia. She is 80 years old and her health is starting to fade. I dread the day when she passes. She is Jonathan's only real family he has left besides us. He doesn't really have much to do with his father, his brother is dead and he doesn't really speak to any of his other brothers and sisters. I know I've mentioned Jonathan's family before, but it would take novel to even get started on that one. Sometimes I feel bad for Chase and Skyler. They really won't have a whole lot of family when they grow up. I can remember the days at my mamaw's house in TN with lots of cousins running around on the farm during the summers with me. I guess a lot of children in this day and age won't know the kind of family we grew up with. People have less children now. Its just so expensive to have very many children. I don't know how we will make it sometimes with the two we have. Daycare alone is like $750.00 a month. Not including diapers, formula, clothes, etc. Kids are EXPENSIVE! Sometimes it would really pay you not to work. I would love to stay home with the kids, but I think I would also go crazy if I didn't have any money and I had to stay cooped up in the house all the time. Hell, I'm going crazy just being in the house for two days during an ice storm! I know I'm jumping all over the place here today. Its just I don't have a lot of time to sit down and write and when I do, my mind is just thinking of all kinds of stuff to say and I don't know where to begin. I know I'm not a good writer like a lot of other journalers I read. I just say whats on my mind and whats going on in my life. I don't know how to make it sound interesting or anything. I think I really only have one reader anyway and that's Caroline. I guess that's a start anyway. Its amazing how some of the journals I read, they have thousands of hits a day. I guess that's why they are good writers and they can keep people coming back for more. I'm wondering sometimes if Skyler looks like me. Here is a pic of me when I was 4 years old. I really think Chase is going to look more like me than Skyler will. Skyler looks more like her daddy. And a picture of Skyler at three years old.... Can't say that we really look much alike, huh? I wish I had a picture of me when I was 5 months old. I have one at my mom's. If you put that picture up next to Chase, it looks like the same baby. We even fooled my dad. We took Chase's newborn picture and mine and showed them to him and he thought it was the same baby. Now that's kind of freaky isn't it? Speaking of journalers, as you probably know, my three favorite journalers are Nance, Robyn and Jane. Well Nance has recently started a job and Jane will soon be starting one. I've really seen their writing slacking off since they began their jobs and job hunt. So it doesn't make me feel so bad that I can't keep up with the posts. Its so hard to find the time to write, work, take care of the house and the kids, etc. Sometimes I wonder how in the hell people do it. Does it get easier as your kids get older when they can do more for themselves? Or does it get harder because you are trying to keep up with what the hell they are doing? I can say I really dread the teenage years. I know I was definitely a handful in my teenage years. I have a feeling that Skyler is going to be just like me. What was it my mom said to me once when I was 15? "You reep what you sew." Now that sends chills up my spine that's for sure. I can already see a lot of me in Skyler. She is hard-headed, wants her way and is an all around little bit-- sometimes. Yup, sounds just like me. I don't think Jonathan can take two bitchy women in the house. I guess we'll see. Well I think I have totally rambled on long enough for one day. I better end for now. Until we meet again....Another Yucky Day Monica; Sorry for No Posts - Saturday, January 29, 2005 I'm sorry its been awhile since I've posted. Things have just been crazy around here. If and when I do have time to try and sit down and do a post, I've really used my time to try and figure out how to add photos to the weblog. I am so "HTML illiterate" its funny. I don't have a whiz kid hubby or son to help me out. I guess you could say "I'm the blind leading the blind." Anyway, I think I am finally figuring it out. It was fine using the program Hello, but I really wanted the photos to show up IN my posts and not on top or after them. Does that make any sense? Anyway, where to begin... Not much has happened since I last wrote. Nothing exciting anyway. My hubby and I are still the typical "fighting" couple. It seems like we are never happy anymore. He complains that I "bitch" too much and I complain that he is a lazy piece of sh--. Hmmm, do you see a viscious cycle here? I say I would'nt HAVE to complain if he would actually DO something around the house besides sit on his a-- watching ballgames. I could go on and on for days on this one, but I really don't feel like it today. He actually told me this morning that he didn't like staying at home because of me. I'm constantly bitching. But when you are the only one in the house that actually does anything and its constant, you really get tired. He basically goes to work and helps me a little with the kids and thats it. And if and when I do try and give him a task to do, I have to continuously follow up on it and finally just end up doing it myself because he never does it or finishes it. Now you might say, don't do it. But for instance, the taxes. I gave him some paperwork and told him to call the IRS and get something done. Well that was 2 months ago and its still not done. Now its time to file our 2004 taxes and we still have something screwed up from 1999. I'll just have to do it myself. Thats the way it turns out all the time. Do you ever think you married the wrong person? Sometimes I definately wonder. Thats horrible to say, I know. But that's just how I really feel right now. Its just one of those things where you either accept the way a person is and live with it, or move on. I really and truly think if the kids and I ever left, that he would be happier. I think we waited too long to have kids and its just been too big of a change for him. He loves the kids and everything, but he really isn't "father material." No one in his family really is. Well except for one uncle. He has no patience and is constantly screaming, not only at the kids, but at me to. This morning I just sat down in front of the washing machine and loaded clothes and cried. I mean when your own hubby tells you that he doesn't like being aroud you. Well what can you say Anyway, enough moaning and groaning. I don't want to depress anyone else. Skyler and I got up this morning and made some muffins. She loves to "help" with the cooking. Sometimes its hard to believe how big she is getting. I can't believe she is already 3 1/2 years old. It seems just like yesterday she was born. Chase is also getting big. He really was only born yesterday it seems! I took him to work yesterday to let the girls at work see him. My co-worker, Amy, who is pregnant, really wanted to see him. She is expecting her first child in June. I keep telling her it is going to be born on my birthday (June 22nd). She isn't finding out the sex of the baby. Now that would have driven me absolutely bonkers! Anyway, I took him to work to show him off. He is such a good baby. I'm really lucky in that department. Not that Skyler isn't a good girl either, but Chase has been an "exceptionally" good baby. Now that all could change at any moment, I'm sure. But for now I'm really enjoying having a good baby! Its a good thing he is good, because if he wasn't, I would probably be up sh-- creek! Jonathan has a hard enough time as it is dealing with the kids. Just the time and energy they take. I really feel lucky sometimes that both of my kids are healthy and gorgeous, of course. (Hmm, I don't seem biased or anything do I?) I guess I should be lucky for the things that I DO have and not things that I DON'T have... Like a loving, caring and attentive husband. Sometimes I look at how other men treat their wives and I wonder why I don't have that. No, I do not have a wife beater husband or anything like that, don't get me wrong. But I definatel don't have one of those husbands who opens doors for you, buys you little gifts on special occasions, pulls the chair out for you at a restaurant, gives you kisses throughout the day, etc. He basically doesn't do anything loving towards me. Is it that way after you hit a certain year of marriage or something? Or is it just us? I think I'm a very loving person and I definately show it with my kids, but if you try and love on Jonathan or anything, its basically like, "What do you want?" Ugh... Okay, I've gotta stop now.
I may think I am an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is I am a good person at heart. Yeah sure, I can have a mean streak in me, but most of the people I meet like me. Sorry for No Posts Monica; Movable Type - Saturday, January 15, 2005 Request: If anyone out there knows Movable Type and could help me to get my site set up with Movable Type, I would LOVE you forever and be forever greatful! Movable Type Monica; Just Another Day... - Its been a bit since I've had time to write. I still haven't "perfected" the skin either. We have been really busy around here. I just returned from a business meeting/inaugural in Pinehurst. For those of you who have never been, its a must. Its a beautiful resort and The Village outside of Pinehurst has all kinds of neat little shops and restaurants. I had never been there before, so it was nice to have our inaugural at a different location. The meetings went pretty well, but I was exhausted afterwards. I'm still recuperating. Now I remember why I love my job though. I love visiting those beautiful resorts when I travel. The only problem is, I never get to actually ENJOY them. That really blows. My mom and stupidity are here from TN. Mom came to stay with Jonathan and the kids while I was gone. Not that Jonathan couldn't handle them by himself or anything, but its easier if you do have help. Mom likes to come over and stay with them and this is a three day weekend because of MLK Day on Monday, so I thought it would be a perfect time for her to come. Then I could also spend a 3 day weekend with her to. We are planning on going to the Streets at Southpoint to do a little shopping on Monday. Not that we need to do any shopping or anything. We really only "window" shop. Its a nice mall and they have some great restaurants and its nice to just get out of the house for awhile. Skyler has started taking gymnastics and she absolutely LOVES it. I'll have to take the camera and get a few shots of her. She is having an absolute blast. The gym where she takes it at is pretty nice. They have two gyms for the kids and have the trampolines down in the floor, the big pits for them to fall in, etc. Its really nice. Its costing us $67.00 a month, but I guess that isn't too bad. So now Tuesdays are gymnastics and Thursdays are ballet. That's a pretty full schedule for a 3 year old I guess. Considering she also goes to Christian school 5 days a week. Its definitely keeping me running I tell you. Jonathan picks up Chase on Tuesdays and Thursdays while Skyler and I do the "girl thing." I guess Chase and Jonathan can do the "guy thing" like t-ball, football or whatever when Chase gets older. I know if Chase is even half way interested in playing sports, Jonathan will be right there with him. I almost forgot... Skyler had a little "incident" the other day. While I was in Pinehurst, Jonathan called and said that Skyler had fallen at school and broke off half of her tooth! Her FRONT tooth no less. I almost freaked out. It might sound vain, but I don't want my daughter going around with a half a tooth for the next 3 to 4 years until she loses her baby teeth. I called our dentist (whom hasn't ever seen Skyler because he says that kids don't really need to go until they are 4 because it freaks them out) and they said that there really wasn't anything you could do for a 3 year old. Well I thought that was a load of crap, so I asked her to give me the number of some children's dentists. Now mind you, I'm making all these calls while I'm in the Meeting Planner's Room at the Pinehurst Resort in the middle of our inaugural meetings. So I call the first dentist and they say since she has never been a patient before that they will have to have 100% payment at the time of service. I said, "But we have dental insurance." But that didn't seem to matter. So I said, well how much will it cost. And the lady said well anywhere between $50.00 to $800.00! Now mind you that's a pretty frigging huge gap there! So I called ANOTHER dentist and finally got her in to be seen that day. Needless to say, Skyler was EXCELLENT at the dentist's office. They said they had never seen a child that young act so calmly at her first visit. Skyler was excited to go to the dentist. Jonathan said she let them put the thing in her mouth that holds it open and they did their thing and it looked great. Unfortunately, I didn't even get to see what it actually looked like and Jonathan didn't bother to take a picture. But the tooth looks pretty good. You really can't even tell it unless you knew it was there. And it only cost us $50.00. Not bad! She also doesn't have any cavities which is a plus! Skyler has always loved her pediatrician. She actually asks to go see him sometimes. She is one tough cookie. When its time to get a shot, she just jerks down those little drawers and sticks her booty out and is ready to go. Its funny how some things don't bother a child, but then they can freak over small things. Well moving on to other things besides the kids.... Jonathan and I are really looking forward to the cruise next month. We are going to fly to New Orleans and stay a few days there before the ship actually leaves. We were in New Orleans a few years ago on a cruise, but the ship was only in port for 6 hours, so we didn't get to do a whole lot. We are flying to New Orleans on Friday and our ship leaves at 5:00 on Sunday. So we will have almost two full days there. I am really looking forward to having some fun in the sun and eating all that food! This will be our third cruise and we are really excited. I really would like to try another cruise line besides Carnival. Maybe next year. I also wouldn't mind going back to Cancun again sometime this year. We had so much fun when we were there a few years ago. I emailed a lady whose journal I had just started reading last year when all of a sudden her journal disappeared. Anyway, she emailed me back and said that she had a new address. So it was nice finding her again. I'll add her as one of my favorite links if I ever get around to fixing the skin on this thing. Maybe I should end the post for now and work on the skin. Sounds like a good idea to me. Maybe some day I will actually have some readers who read my journal. Until we meet again.... Just Another Day... Monica; New Skin... - Saturday, January 08, 2005 Please bear with me while I work on this new skin. As you all know, I pretty much suck at html. I hate to lose my comments section, but I've added a guestbook. So I hope this will make up for it. I'm still working on the skin and hope to be up and running again real soon! I have lots to talk about!!! Be back tomorrow. New Skin... Monica; |
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